Feeling rather lost, lonely, wandering. Where on earth am I going!!??

Feeling overwhelmed. Frenetic voices in my head. Coming. Going. Staying.

Can’t connect the dots. Don’t see the design in the tapestry.

No rest in my sleep, no life in my day.

Alone yet consumed by others. Giving giving, waiting to receive.

Not understanding, heart breaking at the torment that is loss.

I thought I was. I thought we could.

I am not. We cannot.